…Clueless

Sometimes, there is this sudden realization, a sudden bolt of lightening that hits you. A moment in time, when you realize that whatever you do, will never be good enough. Never. Ever.

There will be certain things that your family expects you to do and you fail them; things that your friends want you to do. Even girlfriends have numerous expectations. Why? Why can we humans not live without expecting things in return? People constantly tell me that I’m not exploiting my potential and that they expect that I’ll work hard and do something extraordinary. But the fact is that I really don’t want to. There is no particular mountain that I want to climb up to. I have not set lofty goals for myself and I don’t want to be rich or famous. All I want to do is live a simple life. I’ll live it alone if I have to.

I don’t want to graduate as a hot-shot MBA and mint money. What purpose will I achieve by doing that? Neither do I want to sit in front of a PC screen my entire life. All I know is that I don’t want to be like you all. I have the brain and the caliber. The way I want to use it is entirely upto me. I won’t mind if it goes waste as long as I am happy and content.

I don’t expect anything from anyone. I don’t expect anything from life. Kindly stop nagging and sulking. It’s only ruining the happiness. Maybe… it already has. I know I’m not good enough… never said I was.

1. Good News : I’m passing M1. M1 = Maths 1 Lets just hope they don’t mess up things while checking....
2. Back to the good ol’ days! : I’m back… Yes I’m back to sitting for long hours on my PC once again. Back after six months or so. Because my Dad wouldn’t let me sit in front of my baby at night as he wanted me to study. Crappy exams almost ruined my life. There’s only a week’s break in between. Have [...]...