…Clueless

Farewell.
Farewell..
Farewell…

DAMN!!

I never thought I’d get senti. Wuz laughing at Ankit in the morning cuz he wuz like…

Yaar ab kabhi phir school mein padhne nahin aayenge??!

And I was the one to laugh the loudest.

But then, we actually went inside the hall. Walked down the stage. Danced. Danced. Danced. And danced some more.

But then, slowly, as my batchmates started to leave, they came, shook hands, hugged me & said “bye, best of luck!”. It was then that it actually hit me… YES I WAS LEAVING SCHOOL!!!

No, I’m not happy. I’d be lying if I said that I got mixed emotions inside my head. No I’m sad. Actually sad. Dunno if its because I’m tired. But I’m sad…

Tried to persuade Pranshu to bunk his “DAMN” tuition. But nah!! The guy won’t. Ankit, I think was game but finally gave in to Pranshu’s demands.
Abhit, Arjun & I came back to my house, went for a drive (YEAH!! I was driving the car!! ). Came back & staretd looking at the pics I had clicked using Shivani’s cellphone.
Shit!! The camera lens was so damn dirty that I could hardly make out who was who in the pics. Sorry guys… this means I’m not emailing those sucky pics!! I had actually clicked over 50 pics but everything is ruined now.

But then, Abhit & Arjun left. I was left all alone. Tired, lonely & sad. Even sitting in front of the computer didn’t make me happy . I wasn’t crying ‘n all. But… there was & is something… i think nostalgia.
I started remembering the good ‘ol days. All the fun we guys used to have. We had “girl” friends & still have but the guy-guy bonding is still way stronger (no we aint gays). At least for me it is.

The first time all of us stepped inside the basketball court. As usual, I was the lousiest!! We went for matches together (lost 95%), went for movies together… no girls… all guys… the GANG!!
Those sleepovers…! The times we used to try & impress girls. Everybody trying for the same girl…!! Man… life was good back then. It still is. But I dunno what it would be without school. I don’t know.

The best days… whoever said that is just so fuckin correct.

Here’s one thing that actually everybody knows but I’ll post it anyways cuz it just came to my mind. The first… the first girl we all tried to hit on. Remember guys… “Pehla Nasha”, “Yuvi” ??!! Hehe, I know you guys do!! KIRAT!!! Remember how we got her telephone number which is still in the front pocket of my school blazer?! After that, tried impressing other girls. Remember how we used to rate girls?! The “TOP TEN” girls from all the sections!!

Remember how we never used to complete our notebooks?!
Remember those days when we first started abusing?!
Remember how we used to make fun of each others looks?!
Remember the first time each of us got his facial hair shaved?!
Remember those times when we watched porn at my place?! (We’re no saints!!)
Remember everything?!

I DO… and always will !! I can never forget these days.

Shit… my eyes have become moist now. There’s just so so so much to write. But you already know it. Those of you who don’t know can also relate to the stuff I am talking about.

I’m all alone, listening to “Masti Ki Paathshala” from Rang De Basanti.

Though I’ll meet them all again on 4th for the practicals but it won’t be the same.

My whole body is aching cuz I danced like a maniac today. But this pain feels so good today!!

Will I ever wear my school dress again?!
Will I ever set my school bag again?! (Actually I never did)
Will I ever feel like I have no responsibilities?!
Will I ever be the same again?!

I don’t know. I really don’t know. All that I know is that I’ll miss school. I really will. I just wished I had come to school more often in the last two years.

But then, life goes on…
But will it?

Damn why am I so fickle minded?!