…Clueless

Last Monday, the 18th was probably the saddest day of my life this year. It was my birthday and I was in no mood to celebrate.

The trouble started in the morning of 17th. I had a mood swing and suddenly found myself super bored. I went out for a movie, came back and then went out for dinner. Then someone accused me of something which further ruined my mood. But the biggest blow came via text messages when I had a fight with someone. That was the end of my patience. I quickly retreated into my shell. Yes, most of you haven’t seen this side of Rahul. Now when I enter this so-called shell… I stop caring about everything. I seriously don’t give a fuck. I go about doing everything as if its my duty and don’t reason or question. Its like I have no feelings or emotions. I pushed certain people into oblivion so that they wouldn’t bother me.

But no matter how hard I try, if something bothers me, I cannot completely push it out of my mind. It keeps pricking me on the inside every second. So, in the afternoon, on the 18th, I decided to confront that person. What followed was another round of accusations and arguments. But then I didnt find a good enough reason to chuck everything. So… so… I ended the fight .

Heheh… yes, I made peace with the other party. Since I had been hurt so badly, it took sometime for me to come out from that so-called shell. But eventually I did, the next night i.e. the night of 19th.

Now everything is back to normal. I have finished with all the fights… with all the people. Some are still angry… they can go fuck a tree!!

It was one of the toughest days for me. I was sad and I couldn’t hide it and there were people around me trying hard to make me happy. The sadder part, I didn’t want them around.

I’m glad it all happened. I’ve come out stronger.

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