…Clueless

Life is seriously fucked up.

My board results were good. Got 73.4%. That’s more than I expected. The Mathematics marks were surprisingly low – 50. The Physical Education practical marks were surprisingly high – 30/30. I’m gonna apply for re-evaluation.

AIEEE results are also out. Got a stupid rank that won’t fetch me admission anywhere. Again, I was expecting more. But then, marks don’t lie. I didn’t study hard and now I have no one but myself to blame. The only good thing is that I was never averse to joining any college affiliated to PTU. PTU is no MIT. But all the regional universities are the same. There’s no point in going all the way to Maharashtra or Karnataka or Orissa. Barring the IIT’s, NIT’s, REC’s and a few other institutions, every other college is the same.

But I still don’t understand one thing. When I wish to pursue something in computers, why do I need to study Physics and Chemistry?

1. Doing what I do best… : Yes, I have just done what I’m perfect at. I’ve made another friend sad. Its feels like I’ve swallowed a bucket full of shit and I can’t puke. Feels horrible. Hopefully God will set things right. And if He doesn’t, I have no one but myself to blame. My mood’s been crappy throughout the day. In [...]...
2. Blaoted ego! : So after a nice Squirrel-ly day, it was time for college on Moday, November 13th, again. As usual, I woke up late and Tina was pissed. She refused to drop me at my bus stop and as it happens with many people, sometimes, my bloated ego comes in the way, and it did that day. [...]...
3. Uneasy, restless! : I don’t wanna sleep. I don’t wanna stay in one place. Its a weird feeling. Mum recognized it instantly and asked me why I was sad and behaving unusually. I had and still have no answer. Dad believes that its because the results are coming out and I have my exam on Tuesday. Bu throughout 12th, I [...]...
4. Boring Life… : Life has been real boring… School’s over, nothing to do, nowhere to go. Just study all day like a maniac. Life’s fully fucked up!! Freaky things happening all around me. Tomorrow is an important day for me. No, don’t get any wierd ideas! I’m not going out on a date tomorrow. I have some important work. Can’t [...]...
5. My Dad knows God! : Either my Dad knows God or he simply has some supernatural powers of his own. A few days before my college started, I went with my Dad for shopping. Dad let me loose and I was allowed to pick anything… no stipulations, no conditions whatsoever. But then it came “down” to my jeans. As usual, I [...]...