Its a little peculiar and I’ve only recently noticed this – I enjoy sadness. I like getting depressed. I like to have that pain shoot up inside of me. I like the feeling when my head gets so heavy that tears just trickle out of my eyes. I don’t know what to make of this condition because overall I’m quite happy and satisfied with my life. In fact, life’s never felt better and the future’s never looked so promising.
Then why do I find myself constantly listening to sad and depressing songs, watching movies that make me wanna cry (yes CRY!)… It’s beyond my reasoning. I’m not troubled by this recent revelation but I’m so fucking curious to find out the reason behind all this.
On my playlist : Seether – Waste.
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Wow, I’m not alone, it’s a weird feeling, I’m usually a really happy person but when I’m alone I seem to just make myself sad over stupid things and I only recently realised that I actually seem to enjoy it…
so do i.. i m also very satistied gal.. with no financial or emotional issues… with a gud job. still i like reading novels which make me sad… n i too enjoy that feeling..
I recently realised that it might be another way of satisfying myself… you know, the sadness that really isn’t there, I try to satiate my thirst for it this way.