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Well I finally have something to write today!!

Not in the mood for studying today. I know… its wrong but hey, what can I do?!

Watched Sarkar last night & just finished watching Apharan. Both the movies were simply fantastic!!
Will study at night. Have some good things in mind now… I think I’ll write ‘em down now.
But firstly… I hope Arjun’s done his paper well. Had called him up yesterday to wish him all the best before he left but he was in the toilet. After that I forgot… sorry dude!!

So here I start with my first serious post on my blog.

Well… you know when you were a kid… well I actually remember it quite clearly, I used to be afraid of a lot of things.
A LOT!!

This thought crossed my mind today while I was, well…. ummn.. shitting in the morning!! Now you might think, WTF has that to do with being afraid. Actually for me it does.

When I was very young, once, in the dead of nigh, the geyser (Yes geyser. Not a spring that discharges hot water and steam but the water boiler in the bathroom.) in our bathroom burst. Not the geyser itself, but a pipe just burst and hot water and steam were coming out of it.

I was asleep. My mom didn’t realise at that time what had happened. She thought that probably the geyser had somehow short-circuited and was on fire (that’s what I feel). So she yelled at me and asked me to get up from the bed and come in to the adjoining room. But I dunno what happened to me, I didn’t get up! No I wasn’t unconscious. I just didn’t feel like. My friends often ask me why I’m so laid back… but I don’t really know!!

But I was so damn scared when I woke up in the morning. I was always scared of geysers after that. I couldn’t shit properly after that incident for a long time bcoz the geyser was mounted just above the shit pot. I used to pray while inside the bathroom. I used to be shit scared!! . After many years, the damn pipe burst again. Once again, I WAS SCARED (man was I a sissy!!).

But that’s just one thing I was scared of. At one point of time, I used to be scared of cockroaches. I won’t lie, even now…now… when I’m 18 years old, I’m still scared of lizards. That’s bcoz that damn reptile has fallen on me hundreds of times.

Dogs… not anymore… I think.
I was scared of the dark at one point of time also. But I guess all children are. But my younger bro, my cousin, I feel is quite brave. Though I occasionally make fun of him when he’s scared. But there was a time when he was brave enough to face certain things which I couldn’t.

I still can’t stand under the shower. Not that I’m afraid of getting wet… but I can’t breathe!! I simply can’t. I’ve tried to overcome it a number of times but in vain. I used to take showers till class 2nd. After that only God knows… hehe!!

Closed, confined spaces, tiny rooms still bother me. I’m not exactly claustrophobic. But I dunno.

I tell my friends plenty of times that no one knows me completely. But hey… it seems that even I don’t know myself fully!!

Now don’t draw conclusions about me… I am not a Scaredy Cat. In fact I am quite a bold and a strong person now.

But I still wonder, why do people fear some things. I tried to analyze myself while writing this post but I couldn’t come up with any answers. I was scared or afraid of certain things because… bcoz… DAMN!!! I can’t figure it out!!

There are still plenty of things I was scared of and still am but I think that would make this already boring post a lil’ TOO boring!!

Well one thing I can say for sure….

I AM STILL SCARED OF MY DAD!!

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