…Clueless

So I told this girl that I like her and told her that I don’t expect her to like me in return (Yes… sounds kinda filmy! ). She on the other hand thinks that she’ll mess up my life and that she’s good for nuthin’. I’ve told her a number of times that I’m not a kid, I’m not infatuated and I know what I’m feeling at the moment. But she thinks I’m crazy to fall for a girl like her. She was like – “Why do the right guys always fall for the wrong girls?!”.

It might work out, it might not. But what I’m pissed bout is that no one takes me seriously. She still thinks that I’m just flirting. And secondly, everyone thinks that I’m this dumb, jolly, clueless kid who doesn’t know a thing… doesn’t know what life is.

I’m sick of arguing… and I’m sick of repeating.

Its a good thing I got patience…

1. Rahul spoils the fun… : Its 18th of August, 2006. Rahul is coolly sitting on his PC cleaning up the Google Desktop Index. Suddenly he looks at his cellhpone. Along with the usual mesages from Laddi, Abhit etc. there’s another message from an unkown number which simply says “Hi”. Fuck the third person now… Now I replied with a normal message [...]...
2. Abhit apologizes… : I was in demand yesterday!! Khanna messaged me and told me that he wanted to see me as soon as I got down from my college bus. A little later, Abhit messaged me and told me that he was coming over to my place, around the same Khanna wanted to see me, as he wanted [...]...
3. Fucked up! : Life is seriously fucked up. My board results were good. Got 73.4%. That’s more than I expected. The Mathematics marks were surprisingly low – 50. The Physical Education practical marks were surprisingly high – 30/30. I’m gonna apply for re-evaluation. AIEEE results are also out. Got a stupid rank that won’t fetch me admission anywhere. [...]...
4. Me likes sadness : Its a little peculiar and I’ve only recently noticed this – I enjoy sadness. I like getting depressed. I like to have that pain shoot up inside of me. I like the feeling when my head gets so heavy that tears just trickle out of my eyes. I don’t know what to make of this [...]...
5. So very similar!! : Just check out this post by KC : unexplained I mean, my situation i so very similar. So many “girl” friends, so many well-wishers from the fairer sex but… Someone told me You’re too cool to fall for any girl. You’re a cool dude – I-don’t-give-a-damn or I-couldn’t-care-less types. OK…. I’m not dying without female [...]...