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Time heals everything…

Does it? Is it true that as life moves on, so do we? Do we ever let go of our past and look forward to the future?
I say no. We never let go. We always cling to our past, keeping it close to our hearts. Very few people actually plan for the future. Most of us just live for today along with the memories from our past.

It might sound very logical when someone says that wounds heal with time. But is it applicable only for the physical wounds or mental hurt as well? I say none. Not all scars show and not all wounds heal – be it physical or mental. Nobody can actually feel your pain. Putting yourself and actually “being” in someone’s shoes are two entirely different things. Even if somebody actually goes through a similar phase, the suffering differs from person to person.

You see this world is cruel. Even the nicest people are scumbags. Why? Say for example a person’s dad dies. Now people will go to that person and express their condolences. This won’t actually make that person feel any better. Its just a bloody social formality I say. The person might be too shocked to cry at that time. But if he starts crying, say after a month or so, people react to it by saying that its just an attention seeking and sympathy gaining gimmick.

You break up with your sweetheart. All you hear from the people is that whatever happens, happens for the best. You find a new person. You start a new life. But somewhere, sometime, you pause and think… could it have been different? Why didn’t it work out between us?

When you reach a so-called dead-end, you turn and find a new path. But there’s always an urge to either scale the wall or simply bring it down. There’s always an urge to see what actually lies on that path. Even if we choose a different direction, that dead-end becomes the focus of our attention for a long long time.

You never forget a person or a thing. Your mind is not a Hard Disk Drive… you cannot hard format it. Everthing leaves its impression on those bumps in our brain. These scars, these impressions are not physically visible. But as soon as you close your eyes, you form a clear, crisp and precise image. You relive the whole incident day after day after day. The more you try to erase the picture from your head, the bigger and bolder the image becomes. You fight a losing battle.

Time heals nothing, it just eases the pain. Time simply provides distractions. But sooner or later, the wound breaks open again. This time the wound might not appear big but it defnitely hurts more!! Memories don’t fade away. They come back to haunt you.

1. Anger : I am lying on my bed at the moment. . . Thinking. . . Why, why can’t I get angry at some people. Somebody asked me this question. But the thing is, when you know, you are aware of the fact that what the other person said or did, she didn’t mean it. I get [...]...
2. Instant liking : It’s been long since I heard a song and instantly liked it. Well no more… Suddenly, there arrives a song, who with its brilliant musical arrangement and lyrics caught my mind like never before. The song is waste by Seether. I find myself listening to it all day… and as stated in the previous post, [...]...
3. Jessica Alba : She is just so fucking cute!! Stylish, sexy, naughty, cute… all rolled into one. And that too without make-up Please be mine!...
4. My Desktop : My LCD, the Samsung SyncMaster 740n, with a max resolution of 1280×1024. OK, its not a pic of my monitor but a screenshot of my desktop which looks stunning with an Elisha Cuthbert wallpaper!!! Wo0o0o0W!! Clean, uncluttered and oh so sexy!! Though my Dad is always like, “Rahul, where do you get such ugly wallpapers [...]...
5. I’m so fuckin dead… : Now I need to submit 4 ED sheets tomorrow. I haven’t completed even a single one. I am so so so tired today. Last night I slept at 2.30 AM chatting and trying to complete some of the pending work. Woke up at 6.30 AM. Lord… take me away… I want out…! Side-Effects : I have [...]...